ohanami attempt two.

i met naho at 7pm at the grocery store. we bought beer. and, i might say, we were both hot ladies on our bicycles. naho gave me props for knowing japanese slang, like mamacherie, and obatallion, and we jumped on said mamacheries and headed up to the park to ohanami! yay!

we bought some okonomiyaki (yummy pancakes, but these were without tako, kind of disappointing, and 500yen!!)

then we walked around, and drank more beer, and bought more food, and drank more, and bought more food. this is naho eating one of the snacks, already pretty blitzed.

for about a half an hour we sat on these steps, by this temple-like thing, the hand washing area, and people watched and talked about boys. what do i look for.. mmm he must be stylish! and what does naho look for?... mmm he must have muscles! so much fun! we were laughing about how only ojisans are the people that say "domo domo domo!" when you run into them. and its funny when they say it to each other, just "domo domo domo-ing".

then we wandered back up to the "carnival" alley where all the food was to hit the loo, wash the dango off of our hands, and took a seat while naho finished her beer. we were scheming in regards to finding more alchohol and approached this one oji-san at his stand and found out he wanted 400yen a beer!

we tried to talk him down to 200yen, but well, no going there, obviously, so we sat more, and he came over and started talking to us. he made some joke about being from brazil, and then asked me if i wanted to marry him, and i laughed and said "iiiiiieeeeeee!!" and shook my hand in front of my face very vigorously. also known as "hells bells no!" and then later he said i would fall in love with him! so funny. then we saw dave-sensei, and melissa (her blog is here) and her boyfriend, who if i remember introduced himself as james brown. could be wrong. so they sat, and we laughed, and then i think the ojisan scared them, so they took off, and naho and i quickly booked it afterwards and laughed like crazy about the ojisan. then we got more beer at lawsons. while we were at lawsons the clerk suggested we order flowers for mothers day, and i said "inai" meaning, i had no mother! so funny. then, we came back, i got way more drunk, and we played upwords with naho spelling japanese words, me spelling english words, and laughing when she spelled dior. so much fun. i'd say it was a successful ohanami.

slippery udon and the beginning of golden week

what is golden week ? well, for me its a week off, and perhaps lots of drinking and taking in cultural activities and crafting. so, this is my to do list:

-crochet caitlin's shawl check! friday, 8pm
-study japanese for a solid 3 hours (possibly six, but that's pushing it i think)
-finish nihon!go! issue #2
-fix skully shrug check! saturday, 1am
-make a circle skirt
-do all my lesson planning for may and make materials for the first week
-post all the craft projects on artificia skully shrug - check! saturday, 12:30pm
-go for bike rides (there's this one bike route in takahata that is supposed to be rocking, with sakura like mad, but it's a full day....)
-ohanami! check! saturday night!
-sleep

now it's your job to keep me up to the task, and we'll see if i accomplish it all, plus more by the night of may 5th.

last night, i wore the following outfit to my japanese lessons: jeans, my black xback bra, a black tanktop that is really strappy and has a high lacy neck in the front, and my pink shirt, the boob shirt, which you can see a photo of here (along with my breasts). anyway, the point is that rocking this outfit and feeling really shitty and sweaty from my 10 minute 6k bikeride and just a shitty day, cindy-san says to me, in english, "you have a sexy back". i was so pleased. she so made my day. i havent been complimented like that in too long.

because i like reading about myself..

QUESTION SET One

1. First name? Diandra-Mary
2. Were you named after anyone? My mom says that she created the name Diandra, but we all know the powers of Diandra Douglas during the early eighties. And, Mary is the first part of my grandma koop's name, MaryAnn. But what happened is my mom stuck a hyphen between the first and middle name on my birth certificate, to indicate a separation with the names, and now look! im a double barrel first name. not many people know this, but tim likes to rub it in.
3. Do you wish on stars? not as much as i used to. i like feeling in control.
4. When did you last cry? i cant remember. last week on thursday i felt like crying.
5. Do you like your handwriting? printing.
6. What is your favourite lunch meat? Yves veggie pepperoni.
7. What is your birth date? september 6, 1982
8. What is your most embarrassing CD? nothing, actually. ive gotten over this. it used to be such a hangup for me. im more embarrassed that i dont own any pixies, or velvet underground, or violent femmes
9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? you bet, i rock!
10. Do you have a journal? um, yes. and two blogs.
11. Do you use sarcasm a lot? not really. i dont have many friends here that would get it. irony/sarcasm is difficult in japan.
12. What are your nicknames? di, double-d (not because of my boobs), d-funk, stinker (i havent heard this one in a long time!)
13. Would you bungee jump? no, but i want to sky dive.
14. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? sometimes. depending on the shoes and if im sitting on tatami or not.
15. Do you think that you are strong: yes. but im also weak.
16. What is your favorite ice cream flavour? chocolate chip mint.
17. Shoe Size? 27 japan/10 canada.
18. Red or pink? pink!
19. Your least favorite thing about yourself? that im not entirely happy with myself all the time, and that i often feel unmotivated and lacking gumption.
20. Who do you miss most? everyone! (marmalade).
21. Do you want everyone you send this to, send it back? um, yeah.
22. What color underwear and shoes are you wearing? grey underwear, too big, and black socks with white anchors.
23. What are you listening to right now? DFA remix of le tigre's deceptacon.
24. What was the last thing you ate? leftover stirfry crap-stuff with soba noodles.
25. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? wacky watermelon, or the "skin" colour.
26. What is the weather like right now? overcast and fucking muggy.
27. Last person you talked to on the phone? mum
28. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? is this supposed to mean those that you are attracted to? well, hmm. shallow i know, but usually overall appearance.
29. Do you like the person who sent this to you? of course!
30. Favorite Drink? gin and tonic. water.
31. Favorite Sport? soccer, tennis, riding my bike.
32. Hair Color? brown.
34. Do you wear contacts? no.
35. Favorite Food? right now, falafel b/c i havent had a falafel in a long fucking time.
36. Last Movie You Watched? bridget jones: the edge of reason.
37. Favourite Day Of The Year? um, i really like it when school starts.
38. Scary Movies Or Happy Endings? neither. i like fucked movies. like maelstrom
39. Summer Or Winter? fall.
40. Hugs OR Kisses? cuddling.
41. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? san francisco foggies, and dango (ha ha)
42. Who Is Most Likely To Respond?
43. Who Is Least Likely To Respond?
44. Living Arrangements? a flat, all by myself. it gets dusty really quick. and i have to sweep the mini-veranda.
45. What's your favorite book(s): beautiful losers (cohen), shampoo planet (coupland.. well, anything coupland)... magazine addict.
46. What's On Your Mouse Pad? it was free: a winnie the poo mousepad.
47. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? no t.v.
48. Favorite Smells? bergamont, mint, burberry brit.
49. Favorite Sounds? traffic, my boots on snow, marmalade when she meows in search of me.
50. Rolling Stones or Beatles? um, really neither. but im starting to like the beatles a bit. (my parents are really young!!!)
51. What's the furthest you've been from home? where i am now.
52. Do you have a special talent? many.
53. What is your ringtone? email: its my life, no doubt. phone: what you waiting for, gwen stefani.
54. What is the best thing about the person who sent you this? she rocks my socks for six long blocks.
55. Anything else you want to include? this is fun!

QUESTION SET two!

Spell your first name backwards: ARDNAID
The story behind your msn name: i dont know what my msn name is. maybe d-funk. see above.
Where do you live? mitsumatori, nanyo-shi, yamagata-ken, japan.
3 words that sum you up: crafty, critical, busy.

{DESCRIBE YOUR}
[Wallet]: its a little vinyl change purse with tomatoes on it, by swimmer.
[Hairbrush]: plastic and pink, i rarely use it, i use a comb.
[jewellery you wear daily]: at least a pair of earrings.
[Pillow cover]: two green plant decorated pillowcases.
[Coffee cup]: um, nope. i drink from my pink sfu nalley a lot though. just water.
[CD in stereo right now]: broken social scene, you forgot it in people.
[What you are wearing now]: jeans (that are almost gone between my thighs), black socks, grey underwear, black bra, black tank top, and red t-shirt i got from a clothing swap in victoria, modified, and stencilled pictures of caitlin's mom onto.
[Hair]: brown and in pigtails. see picture at top.
[In my mouth]: nothing..?
[In my head]: a brain, thoughts, creative energy, lust and love.
[Eating]: just ate, drinking water.
[Some of your favourite movies]: ive recently decided that i hate this question because i dont really fucking care about movies all that much, in the metaphorical, theoretical sense. for me, they are time markers for crafty projects.
[Something you're looking forward to]: art show in november!
[Something that you are very afraid of?]: falling down stairs. having to constantly reaffirm my idea of being queer.

[Do you like candles]: tea lights.
[Do you believe in a thing called love]: wow, is that a line from a darkness song. yes.
[Do you believe in soul mates]: no.
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: yep. though its difficult, no.
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: i want to cuddle with my marmalade and practise tuff love with eachother.
[Where wouldn't you mind relocating to?]: montreal, kyoto, winnipeg, anacortes, bella bella (all places ive never been)
[What are some of your favourite pig out foods?]: popcorn and happy planet cranberry juice.
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: math, japanese, rejection.
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: um, everyone?
{In the last 24 hours, have you)
[Cried:] nope.
[Gotten sick:] nope.
[Sang:] yes!!!
[Eaten:] yes.
[Felt stupid:] yeah, i tend to feel stupid when im around new people.
[Hugged someone:] no! i miss hugging. i miss kissing. i miss fucking. i miss cuddling.
[Wanted to tell someone you loved them]: i want to tell everyone that i love them all the time!
[Met someone new]: kinda, martin and i spotted a caucasian gaijin at the sushi bar. but we werent sure. what's he doing in our town??
[Talked to an ex]: yes, and sometimes it feels like we didnt even break up. and for me, that's a problem. (even though we're still really good friends)
[Talked to someone you have a crush on]: kinda. i emailed one and got an automatic reply because he's away from his computer. but i really shouldnt be crushing on him.
[Fought with your parents]: no, not today.
[Dreamed about someone you can't be with:] yep.
[Are you centre of attention or the wallflower:] i like being a wallflower, but fucking love being the centre of attention.
[What type of automobile do you drive]: her name's wendy. she's so small that she's not considered a mama-cherie.
[Would u rather be with friends or on a date:]: either, really. though, i am honestly counting down the days until jeff, caitlin, amanda, kalin and i can have lunch together.
[Do you like being around people:] yes. im not around them enough.
[Who have you known the longest:]my mum? what kind of question is that? friend. hmm. kieran or tim's brother luke.
[Who has the coolest siblings?] amanda. those lewis girls are the bomb.
[What do you think of the person who sent this to you:] um, love, you're wonderful! you're crafty, and sexy, and a good writer, you know what you want, you're self analytical, a good dresser, super stylish, a fabulous shopper, you have incredible taste in music, a good heart, you inspire me, and im so fucking glad im your friend. i love you!

no, fugu you!

akayu eki. (today).

today is my designation for middle-ground. ive been here six months. im leaving in six months. the seasons are changing. and im happy at random times. i took a chance to reflect (lame!) over the last six months and im not going to say much here in detail (because im saving it for the zine). but, about 5 months of said 6 were really rough, lonely, isolating and cold. spring is saving me from consuming myself in misery.

i went for a study-sushi date with martin this evening. it was warm out, i was really enjoying the warm weather, and i actually wanted to study japanese, but for the first time ever, we chatted more than we studied. it was fun! the sushi bar we went to is the most famous one in nanyo (people that live in kaminoyama told me about it), and the servings are gi-normous and cheap. so, we went in, and asked for a table, and ended up on tatami, sitting, not particularly good for studying now is it? but it was really cool because not only did they have the conveyer that went around the sushi bar (where all the sushi chefs were women!), but one went around the inside wall where we were sitting. so we ate copious amounts of ねぎとろ negi toro, yummers, and tried some ふぐ　fugu. the deadly blowfish variety. and it had this bitter taste to it, and came with its own shouyu sauce for dipping. im not dead yet, and for 300yen, the chance of death comes really cheap. but ecoli ridden まぐろ maguro, tuna, is cheaper, at 200yen. ha ha. all in all, little studying was done, but it was an experience in using an intercom to contact the kitchen to get our sushi, trying ground beef sushi, and reading a menu that was ENTIRELY in japanese (sometimes they romanji). so, good practise.

consumer whore

and really fucking narcissistic.
albums to get me through japan (the only ones i brought)

love-15

oh my! joining tennis has officially become the smartest thing that ive done since ive gotten to japan! what a smart smart idea! and what were the chances? i mean, its actually a LESSON and we spent most of the night practising volleying, and long hits, and it was wonderful. i met a bunch of new people. mostly men. in their forties. who speak english. which is DIVINE! and just really, all these people are so nice, and it was so good to feel active! and to have my blood pump, and to finally get the hang of tennis again (but oh boy i still have a long way to go. those guys are GOOD!), and to huff and puff and just feel sweaty and refreshed. i miss it alot. i dont come off as the sporty type (um, maybe because im fat and i like eating!? ha ha), but i fucking love sports. and well, if i cant play soccer, then i might as well play tennis. and yumi, lovely yumi, the woman who invited me to play tennis, she lent me a racket for "a very long time". but, i think i may buy one still. oooh, and the best thing is, because im in japan, people like drinking. oh yes. i will be drinking with these boys!

ive become the sort of person who eats raw tofu with shouyu and negi. mmm. now im about to boil some soba and fry some negi and lettuce and have myself a yummy after-workout feast. and probably eat another block of raw tofu. mmmyummy!

the parking lot of a card-drug store near the tennis courts in miyauchi. love!

gero (sounds like "ghetto" and is the japanese noun for vomit).

yesterday jason, song and i went sakura hunting at nishi zao. but there was no sakura. so we went to this fabulous view spot, and while we were there we heard this drumming. so following a road, towards the drumming, on the side of a mountain, we came along this:

there was a house right next to it, where the drumming was coming from. and inside this temple-y thingy there was no one, but three white cars parked outside, open doors, and tools lying everywhere, and this metal chair with a stereo on it playing 1980s top 40 j-pop, etc. but NO ONE TO BE FOUND!! really weird.

today i spent the afternoon warding of an infection, bastards. i hate only having emergency health insurance. grrr. and i cant find any cranberry juice, or goldenseal vitamin-thingy that i need, so ive been drinking lots of water, consuming lots of vitamins, and eating dango for good luck.

at the ekaiwa tonight i had lots of fun and at the end spent a half an hour updating my phone book with people's numbers, emails, and photos. so, all the pictures of me turned out horribly because i was laughing so hard. but this one of daisuke turned out the best. he's so cute. as aki said, "kawaii des!" ha ha.

ohanami attempt one.

for now, just a picture. tomorrow i might have more to say, plus another picture and a somewhat good story of something really weird. off to study japanese!

xoxo

"in the house that's by the tracks, i want you, i want you back!"

i want to make a list of the sexiest songs and im never able to sit down and rack my brain and make a list. so i will start with four, and i encourage you to add to the list (make me proud!)
1. striptease - hawksley workman
2. rapture - pedro the lion
3. the richest man in babylon - thievery corportation (the whole album)
4. anything by bugge wesseltoft.

moving on, ive been doing base sketches for the brautigan book, which is the hardest work, b/c its all of the creative work, and then the drawing of the real plates (i need to know artspeak!) is the technical part. im leaving all watched over by machines of loving grace till the end. last night i finished my shrug, which i will put more details about on artificia, but i thought i might post a picture. some would say that i look scary. the knitting demon!

you cant tell from the picture, but one sleeve is longer than the other, by about two inches. which is a problem that i have yet to remedy. maybe after i put it in the dryer itll change shape, in a good way.

on friday i wore jelly bracelets to my class that i was teaching, and moeko, 4yearsold, says, "diandra, what's this?" and grabs my wrist. i say "its a bracelet". she repeats "bracelet" quietly to herself and then says, "its beautiful" really really loud! so cute!

and i keep forgetting to say that i have the cutest neighbour. but in a mid-20s, wears suits, rides a silver bike (wanted a black one, but i have a black one and didnt want to confuse anything), and is super hot. and doesnt speak a word of english. except, when he speaks to me in japanese he speaks really fast and im not listening because im imagining nasty things.

view east of akayu eki. yesterday was ugly!

"what's the weather like?"

this is where all the kids would scream "it's stormy!". and i would ask "do you like it when its stormy?" and all the little girls would scream "no!!" and the solitary boy in the lesson would wait until they were finished and say, relatively quietly, but with confidence "yes!" ah, the thunder, lightning, rain, and the wind. and im about to go out into it. yay!

last night after my japanese lesson i ran into the woman, umiko, who works at the convenience store by my house. she was all dressed up to play tennis and was carting a big trough of tennis balls back into building. so, she tells me that she and others play tennis there every tuesday and thursday and then she invites me to join. and now i am going on tuesdays! and i said that i dont have a racket, and she said she'd bring one for me to use. which is fabulous. but i think that with my next paycheck i will buy a tennis racket. im so excited. i havent played a good game of tennis in years and i fucking love tennis (but not as much as i love soccer, or skating. damn, i want to go ice skating, in terrace, while they play 2unlimited and my dad chases after me and i freak out because not only do i hate falling but i suck at stopping).

other than that im starting to come to terms with my internet-addiction. and i dont think its a twelve step program. maybe it should be a twelve step program. but part of it would be getting over my narcissism, and as roy said, i mean, what's more fun than reading about yourself?

tomodachi

its not a lie when i say that im not actually lonely anymore. but, i cannot say that i dont miss people, because i miss my friends and family tremendously. honestly, mostly my friends. and it seems that we're all coming into our own this year. and that is really exciting. but, i was thinking. i have friends here. people i see. people i do things with. people i make mix-tapes for. but, it doesnt feel the same. and i couldnt figure out for the life of me "why" these friendships werent the same. and then yesterday, eureaka! presently my theory is thus: i have 18 close friends. and, well, that's a really high number if you think about it. lots of people have one or two best friends, but i have 18 best friends! and its wonderful. im not intending to make this sound like i am bragging, but what i am trying to stress is that with these people i have had the opportunity to have them open their hearts and run blindly towards me. and i in turn rip my heart out and sprint towards them. so, while in b.c. i have these super-close friends, i also have friends that im not particularly close to, those that havent yet opened their hearts (though i swear ive ripped mine out for them), and its not that frustrating because i have this wonderful 18 to counter-balance that. but, here, i really have no one that has ripped out their heart and run towards me. i have ripped out my heart for at least 4 people (which isnt that many) and there's no reciprocation. and it sucks. and i know that im not trying that hard. and it is somewhat difficult to make friends here when i have no social network (i mean, at least in vancouver i would have s.f.u., or work at various jobs). but here, i have one co-worker, jason, who isnt really a co-worker, and we're not super-close. but we've been friends for a few years. other than that, really im having such a terrible time meeting someone who would rip out their heart. and then i got to thinking what ripping out your heart entails. and it made me realize that my 18 are so fabulous because they are just like me in that they give the love always and are constantly willing to say tremendous amounts of fabulous things about you, to you, to others, while you do the same. and its splendid.

well, that really went no where, but i had to get it off my chest. presently im colouring 30 drawings of tree stumps for a board game and am quite behind. egads.
xoxo. (p.s. to you 18!! i love you so much! i cant wait until we can shake our asses to deceptacon and drink gin and eat copious amounts of vancouver sushi.)

manic monday... er, wait...

this evening i realized that i am rarely lonely, rarely in bad headspace, and most often fucking awesome! i havent really eliminated any of my debt. my japanese hasnt gotten any better. and i still havent nagged that "special someone" to "make love" to. but damn, i feel awesome. im starting to notice the same things again, but with more beauty, and its really fun. for example, when i first moved here i noticed how the street lights always make it seem like i am on a movie set (the white light), and every time i look out my window im expecting some hot shot star to walk by with an entourage. and someone to yell "action". its fabulous.

after i went to misudo to study my japanese for 2 hours i went to yamazawa (ive been eating like crazy today.. grr) and saw this nivea cream. this isnt the first time ive seen anything that says it can make you whiter, but this time i actually took a picture of it. also, in conjunction with that you should read Margaret CHO's blog and her piece about wanting to be white. a lot of the time i dont want to be white. hmm.

sendai

let's start at the beginning. it's much more fun that way.
my working holiday visa was extended. jason's working visa was extended. what does this mean? day trip to sendai to get our passports violated. deciding to go on a day off we made it out to be a day-trip. in all jason said it was less exciting than he thought it would be. and i think it was more exciting (and fun) than i thought it would be.

so, i woke up at 6am and got prettied up (purple makeup to match my purple track jacket) and caught the train into yamagata at 8:30am. we met, got on the bus. and here, you dont put your ticket in at the beginning, you put it in at the end. ha ha. (why didnt anyone tell me?) so i put my ticket in and the driver was looking at me in his early morning shock. so, i reassured him it was just me on the ticket, and everything was okay.

we pulled into sendai around 11am and wandered around the eki looking for a city map (so we could find the immigration building) and used the loo (i actually didnt pee on myself while using the japanese toilets. but i did have to take my pants and underwear off. ha ha). then we set out towards immigration, did a circle, got somewhat disoriented and showed up just after they closed for lunch. ha ha! so, we got our numbers, went and got juice, onigiri, and ice cream from the convenie and then ate our snackies sitting on an ant hill. the visa stuff was taken care of, and then we set out back towards the centre of town, looking for book stores and music stores, and finding both. but we did not find guitar stores. hmm.

we went to ayumi books and i bought a Taschen Icons book called Japanese Beauties. I've been wanting it for a while. then we went to tower records and listened to crazy amounts of music on their listening booths. i finally got to hear the departure and the bravery. and i got to decide that the departure needs to grow on me and i fucking love the bravery!!! but i couldnt will myself to buy it. but i did buy a demo tape from this sendai pop-punk band called school. and the demo is called emo class. how classic. and awesome. love love.

after that we wandered around the major shopping mall (kinda like robson, but not a street and with this big overhang) and went to a video game parlour (5 floors! one whole floor dedicated to those picture booths where you can dress up in costumes and take pictures with your girls!)

i had fun playing this shooting game with jason. but well, i dont really like shooting games. hmm.

we were hungry and bored and just wandering around so we decided that we needed to start drinking beer. so we wandered around looking for an izakaya and ended up sauntering down a side street, i was attracted to these motorcycles and scooters parked along it. anyway, we found this little soba shop, with beers for 360yen and soba for 320yen. and well, you buy your "meal tickets" from a machine. which was new for me. and it was actually pretty good soba, and the shop was full of these old japanese people. this one ojisan started talking to me (and jason) on two occassions and it was really funny b/c jason's japanese is stellar compared to mine, but the old guy just kept talking to me about how he has family or something in canada. the first person ever to guess canada too! usually im seen as american or brazillian. so kudos to him.

then we went to maruzen books and i bought david sedaris' book dress your family in corduroy and denim.

then we decided we should head back to yamagata (7pm-ish), but that we should drink more beer on the bus. so we did. and then when we got back to yamagata we decided to go drinking. we went to a gaijin-owned bar, J's bar, neither of us had ever been. and we drank two more beers, i shook my booty in my seat-ee to crazy in love, mrs. robinson, and shake your tailfeather, and then we met two of jason's friends and went to an izakaya and drank 200yen shochu and juice (liquor and juice) and ate food and got pretty blitzed.

i decided not to catch the last train home and crashed at jason's, slept for maybe 4 hours, woke up, jenny called (so nice to hear her voice!!) at 6am, and then went and took the first train (7:14am) back to akayu. now im nursing a horrible headache, a sore body, and a nasty case of gut rot. ha ha. (ive had juice, genki-sauce-vitamin-magic-in-a-vial, and some jelly juice to stop hangover from happening all day). now i just have to drink water, have a shower, and nurse my blisters from those hours of walking yesterday.

send an s.o.s.

(for those in the know, feel free to put two-and-two together)

does anyone know anything about schizophrenia? have any special experiences or advice or coping strategies to share (particularly when a friend has said "mental illness"?) i'm looking mainly for personal experiences, troubles with western medicine (cautions and warnings/things to look for), and well, alternative methods to the western approach.

i think i should relax a little, afterall, richard brautigan was schizophrenic. (but he did commit suicide)... happy thoughts happy thoughts!!

poisonous chalk and other hazards of teaching.

the room where i teach in Yonezawa on saturdays is really big and has hard hard wood floors and its a lot of good fun. but, there are chalk boards and that chalk creates so much dust that the kids get it in their eyes and i am all chalky on the inside and outside. and my eyes dry out so fast. not a good scene. i must buy non dusty chalk.

despite the lack of sleep, today has been absolutely wonderful! arimoto-san and i went on a dango-hunt. unable to find any (rice balls with yummy sugary topping) we pouted, him more than me, and now im gearing up to go to yorkubenimaru to get myself some dango. and a bike pump. and maybe go to misterdonut to work on my japanese.

also today i actually got a reply from tegan and sara . i sent them an email last week saying thank you for so jealous because it sincerely helped me through the winter. and i said id make them cupcakes and armwarmers when i got back to vancouver. i was so shocked to see an email from "them" in my box. but you never know. im super skeptical of celebrity and well, it could've been anyone, right? but still exciting. (presently im dying to make cupcakes!!)

and! yaya! i bought a track jacket. im so excited. i was planning on dumping about ichi-man en on a vintage puma or adidas one, but low and behold, and new one, non puma or adidas, but violet and beige and i just love it. i feel so sporty now.

oooh, and today i saw plum blossoms. you know what that means? sakura are on their way!!

more kaminoyama

i was so tired. and took a picture of this meat shop. i hope that the obachan didnt see me take it.

lodestar (out at the hideout)

i feel like an idiot and am having conflicting issues today. maybe a list to show what's been running through my head?

-this whole blogging thing. im trying to talk about as many things as possible, in the most brutally honest way possible. and i broke a blogging rule, telling people you know about your blog, because well, then im less likely to share things, that i would normally share if i had a false identity. but i dont like being anonymous. i love who i am and well, why the fuck would i want to hide myself from those that love me and know me best? and why not use this forum as a way for having them get to know me better? but, often i wish i could write things that i dont write about (ie. a sex post everyday!!! or posts about fucking up, whole posts dedicated to the word "fuck", and just a general "what is dating, again? how do i do it and not get rejected?" blog. hmm. i need to get on that, no?)

-im not having the "japan experience" like so many others have. im not travelling around. i dont know that many people. i dont eat crazy japanese things just because im in japan. i dont know how to ask the right questions when i meet someone (in english or japanese) and im not upset, but a little put off by the fact that i havent really met anyone as spectacular or crafty or arty, whatever, as i have in other places. so im constantly clinging to those friends (and boy have those friendships strengthened no?) and clingling to november in vancouver, and not rooting myself (well, i mean, this is a highly transient affair) in the concrete and rice paddies that surround me. i dont hate it here, and in that cliche, i have found myself here (and that is an arty self, let me tell you!). im in the place where i can tell my boss that i dont want to extend my contract because im moving back to vancouver to make art (and i have an artshow!) but, i look at pictures of others, those in japan, with their gaijin friends, blitzed, singing karaoke, having "the time of their lives" and im sitting here stressing about not having time to finish making my shrug. and i dont know how to take it. i agree with jason that many gaijin that are here arent that fun. all they really do is complain about what japan isnt. but on the most part the (few) gaijin i have met have been wonderful (still, no knitters, no gin drinkers, no one who wants to listen to le tigre and bounce up and down!!), but i feel so removed (good thing, bad thing, im not sure) because i dont have that set network. and ive always been the person who changes themselves to belong, who fights and crys and punches walls (metaphorically) to fit in, find friends. and now, i dont want to cry, i dont want to fight, i dont want to change myself. ive decided that i rock, and well, everyone should be my friend, right?

-douglas coupland he's always on my mind. (terry)

-today my classes went okay. well, good actually. they went by fast, and yui (11) has picked up a good 20 verbs, which is exciting. but that's two months of practise on said verbs. but its paid off. and it made me happy because, at least by my standards, she knows these concrete things.

-ive been thinking more and more about writing books. three are concurrently working right now, yes, ive started them all, even if only in planning, but the brautigan one is in full swing. my plan is to get my drawings done by the end of my "nihon extravaganza" and then write the "biography" thingy when i get back, and then again, whore myself to publishers. im sure for the brautigan one id have to go into the states to find some bizarre indie publisher (with people in submissions that are still beat all these years later). the cookbook, well you all know about that. and the third. its a secret. because i dont want to fuck it up and then be too self absorbed. just a total secret.

-today i ordered a cd by a japanese band called the portugal japan. cool, cute group sounds. i cant wait until it arrives.

-but i like the GAP and Starbucks!!

-my favourite cd to sing to is s. harmer's you were here. and ive been listening to it over and over all day.

-today i got the best compliment from jeff who said that he was going to have a dinner party and use my cookbooks (and my table, and my soup pot, but that's another story), and that i'd be there in spirit. oh jeff, i miss.


(sorry i talked your ears off)

weakened state.

im at that stage where im a lady in waiting. and waiting. and waiting. i hope i didnt make a terrible fool of myself. i loved caitlin's advice of jumping on my bike at midnight and cycling to his place, knocking on his door, and telling him i want to fuck him. but, i dont know where he lives. ha ha.

its just after 10am and im behind for the day, and super duper exhausted. i had a dream that the girls from sex and the city were quizzing people. it was really bizarre, and i was cynthia nixon. and some girl was smoking, and the cancer-ridden samantha was offended. im so confused. i always thought of myself as a carrie. not a miranda!

this is from the walkway at the eki in kaminoyama. looking north. on wednesday.
xoxo.

this shit is bananas

this morning i got up really early (8am) by my standards, put some jeans on, put my laundry away and went and did work at mister donut for just over one hour. its windy and chilly outside, but the sun is shining strong and its really nice. at misudo i saw naho, lovely lovely, but... she's moving to shizuoka!! which is terribly exciting. i mean, no more misudo, and to live in shizuoka!! i want to live in shizuoka! so, she's moving in july. jason's leaving at the end of june. i must make more friends quick!

holy new format batman (p.2)

its changed again. im not sure why. but i find it a bit cleaner (though i loved the pink and grey it was a little muddy dont you think?).
anyway, with the new blog look im a bit behind to run to the laundro-mat, where i am headed now, and i have a bunch of work to do, still! and i want to knit tonight and clean my flat. errrrg. why is it that even now i have no time?? (maybe tomorrow i shouldnt sleep in huh?). oooh, and anyone know how to get the picture to fit within the post's border. id appreciate that help. xoxo di.

kimono gallery

kimono gallery
Posted by: ohsweetie.this is in kaminoyama. i go there every wednesday and saturday to teach classes. i drool at this shop every time i go by.

taiki

taiki
Posted by: ohsweetie.

this kid is 5, its a one on one class and it is my most difficult because he'd rather just play than learn english. so, today we played soccer for 1/2 an hour. so much fun. he was sweating like a beast.

guilty.

HOLY FUCK!!!
CBC
Reuters
globe and mail
CBC New Brunswick

again, holy fuck. (maybe i'll comment later).

on second thought...

considering this maybe i will never ever bring anyone home... ever.

(art done by the beautiful james)

sweet potato tempura = yummy!

ah, just a quick note. i talked on the phone with my mum and brie today. and i emailed people, and i uninstalled picassa and hello and signed up for buzznet.com so, now ive posted the picture of my lovely lovely hair. that looks better when wet, always.

i just ate a bowl of rice with soya sauce, green onion, wasabi, and two pieces of yam tempura. when in japan......

oh, im totally consumed with knitting a shrug. that's right. a shrug. me. knitting said shrug. i should be done in a few days and will post pictures at artificia.

oyasumi nasai. xoxo.

dirty whore.

(NOTE FOR PARENTS. YOU MIGHT NOT WANT TO READ THIS AND THEN WONDER WHERE YOU WENT WRONG. NEXT TIME TRY THIS.

okay then. the sex post. probably another one of these wont happen for a long time. because really, those in the know will get to know, but the general public doesnt have to be constantly reminded that i masturbate like a maniac, etc., right? right.

ive had three sexual partners in my life. only one actually made it to sex (go team!) and right now im seeking to up the ante (like a certain person's 25-35!) on that count. sounds wise, no? well, its putting me in a terrible predicament because im not longing to find a partner, anyone really, right now to have sex with me. its true, some of you know that i have a crush, that has promise, and ive already talked about that too much (to those who are in the know.. see the trend here?) and now that im considering that said crush actually has promise im starting to think about the rules of sex. like what's okay, what's not okay. is it okay for me to think that its okay to fuck the brains out of my crush on our first date (if said date goes well). should i expect the sex to be bad? should i expect it to be fabulous. and what happens when i "put out". will he stick around for a second go, or will i get ditched, and in that position (har har) would i lose a friend? etcetera etcetera.

so, all of these questions proves one thing. no matter how many episodes of sex and the city that i watched i still dont understand how it all works? anyone please tell me! im so confused. follow my gut? if that's your advice.. then i better get laid within the next seven days! xoxo di.

new slang

yay! my hair is finally up. yippee. thanks for all the compliments kids. lets hope it helps me snag mentioned crush.

without wings, without wheels...

roam around the world.. roam if you want to.. without anything but they love we feel.....(i love this song!!!!)

new hair can be seen here er, here
and tell picassa to fuck itself.

on to other things. its hot out, i went to buy a track jacket and ended up with a three shirt set for 1890\, and photocopied stuff for a piece, and mbna canada upped my credit card limit by $200. bastards. so i bought a cd and some tegan and sara pins from maple music. terrible.
xoxo.

say hello to the mysterious picassa

well, im trying to post a picture of me looking super hip and tremendously narcissistic with my new hair, snippity snip snip, and ive got a post, and all the links are there, but no picture is showing. perhaps if we put on our ruby slippers and click our heels it'll work! there's no place like home.

last night i went to yonezawa with eiko and harumi to eat dinner (we went to milky way again, but this time it was really really bad...and you're saying, but it's always really really bad.. but no, this time it was REALLY bad).. but, the conversation was fun and i got to tell the girls about my brewing crush and get lots of ecouragment, which is really needed when you are in the thick of a crush, no? and then we went to watch Bridget Jones Diary 2: the edge of reason. and amanda, it was as bad as you said it would be. but, guiltily i was drooling all over hugh grant and was 80% swept up into it. im not really the target market if you know what i mean.

but alas, i slept until 9:30am and now its sunny outside and im starving. i have no eateable food in the house, kinda, and ive got to go get groceries. today is payday but b/c i dont see my boss on sundays or mondays im getting paid on tuesday, two days late. oivey. and i might go for a bike ride. i do need to inflate my tires a bit.

new slang

new hair!!! 

obsession

for those of you who do not know, i am obsessed with kelly ellard.

when the beating and death of reena virk actually took place i dont have memories of recognizing it as it happened in the media, nor the first trial really. as i was at the time i was probably actually really affected by it, but now my obsessive behaviour around this issue is totally different. at the end of her second trial it got to the point where i would tell anyone that i saw that i thought kelly ellard didnt do it and that they should just leave her the fuck alone. back then the judge declared a mistrial, and i was happy. i mean the stupid prosecution didnt think their case through enough and they had all the other witnesses and glowatski lied like crazy to cover their ass and its just one big teenage drama. now the trial is at its third showing (oddly you can read some pretty indepth accounts of the trial at club vibes but please be aware of the "homo"-bashing that ensues within the thread. and today or yesterday the defence and prosecution summed up their cases and the jury is now in a contemplative mood. i will just have to wait with baited breath to see what happens.

i dont want to make it seem like i see the crime committed as a simple crime that has no effect on anyone. that is just total bullshit. this murder has had a strong implication on race, the foster child system, how parents respond to their children being murdered after they've been unwelcome at home, media frenzy, and constant victimization of kelly ellard. i dont want to say that kelly is guilty or innocent. and i wont say that she was wearing all white that night and didnt lay a finger on virk, because the evidence is there, she did have a part in the murder, but i dont think that she had the part that has made her out like a monster. and honestly im not sure if she'll be convicted or not, but there is an obsession with punishing ellard for something. why are they continuing to try her even after the last judge said all the evidence was misconstrued. i mean the prosecution has a dirty case. im more obsessed with why people are trying to criminalize ellard and why i have an obsession with her.

jeff recently moved into a building in eastern new westminster. where we suspect kelly ellard is lurking in the hallway of his building. when he finds out what apartment shes in he said he would befriend her and borrow sugar from her for me, and then start to withdraw potential murder weapons from her apartment as keepsakes for after she goes to jail. because she wont really need them in there. a sick twisted joke. yes. why am i so obsessed by this trial and kelly ellard?

race, youth, kids gone wrong. she's my age. does that mean anything? and fuck, she looks so mean in her picture.

house of jealous lovers

today i talked to alex and i think that we're going to name the recipes in our books after songs, like his "mass romantic" (new pornographers) apple desert and my "deceptacon" (le tigre)vegan brownies, and i just decided that i want to name a chapter "house of jealous lovers" (the rapture). other thoughts im having are "lodestar" (sarah harmer) corn muffins, "little tragedies" (hawksley workman) vegan banana-cranberry muffins, and "mesopotamia" (b52s) hummus. i cant wait until we get the most of our recipes together, begin writing it, and then whore ourselves to publisers. (all probably in just over a year.. well, the whoring at least, we cant really do it while alex is in school because we all know that school is a definite distraction from whoring).

tonight i have my japanese lessons and i think that right now im going to turn off my computer and not start it up again until sunday. wha?? maybe tomorrow night. i'll see how i'm feeling. today i got my phone bill and it was 17,000yen. and that's not my keitai bill. so this month both my phone bills, collectively, were 33,000yen. about 350dollars?? yikes. so i signed up for a new phone plan with my land line, and ive already stopped using my keitai so much. so, lets hope that collectively the price gets down to 17,000yen. and then about 10,000yen. that would make me happy.

oh my, the new strut comes out soon and there are two covers. one with brittany murphy and one with juliette lewis. i want them both!!

artificia

hey, im so narcissistic and crafty that kalin and i started another spot for us to talk about ourselves, but focusing on the things we make, eventually. check it out. its beautiful. artificia

give kalin the love, she's the html pro.

xoxo di.

oh yeah...

i put more pictures up on the photo album.

and im getting sick again. but, now im on top of it.

and the temperature climbs!

yesterday it was 10.C outside. today it was 24.C outside. enough said? i think so. (aka. im so happy right now, and jason was deliriously happy too!! sun is fabulous!)

today i drove may-sensei to sagae, the last day, and when we arrived at the community centre, and i parked the car, these old men, the parking lot monitors, with orange battons, and trucker hats, told me that i could only back in. i was already out of the car and was like, "ah, soka.. shock!" they laughed, and i pulled into the spot ahead to be basically "backed in". why is this? you ask. well, everyone here backs in. into every parking spot. every car. its something that i will totally miss, put i still pull in... most of the time.

last night i bought a shop guide for yamagata, fukushima, and sendai. now i know where vivienne westwood is, the puma store, the arnie palmer store, and just gaaa!!! there are about 20 maps at the back, and pictures of all the stores, phone numbers, times open, and labels that you can buy in said store. all in japanese of course, and i cant read the other stuff, but what i mentioned above is the most important. im so going to john galliano. so i think that i will plan a one day trip to sendai, sometime before i leave, and just take pictures of all these stores (comme de garcons!) and maybe pop into Y-3 and buy some sneakers (im sure they'll pass for cheap.. ha ha!!)

my wonderful friend terumi (sister of eiko, other terrific friend.. wonderful, beautiful, smart, fun, i cannot say enough fun things about these women!!!!) has two kids. mirei, who is 5, and akari, who is two. both girls. both tall, both with the darkest hair and the thickest darkest eyelashes you've ever seen. tottemo kawaii des! anyway, mirei was taking a class with may-sensei through the yamagata office, and well, i just wanted to say that they are terribly cute, and ill get pictures of them before i come home. (there was really no point to that).

so now i will go to bed, after some teeth cleaning action, and get up early to do the work that i didnt get done today. ive reconciled my inability to take account of my budget this month, and subsequent overspending. it just carried me away, and i think that i can get back on track.

shirataka ni ikimashta.

right now im sitting in the community centre in shirataka, i teach in this building, and just using the internet b/c it so much faster, and non-crashy. yay!

im feeling better about "the sick friend". im going to call her tomorrow morning. in general im feeling better. last night i got to play taiko drumming, and pop melody, and live it up in the japanese arcade. next time d.d.r. yes! and i got to eat donuts, and make sexual jokes (i mean, come on, we were playing up words. it hit the plateau of bad when someone could have spelled "sexwounds", but didnt, and martin suggested "bonafide." ha ha. ive never been so scarlet so fast), and then feel accomplished when i got my work done, and eat nikuman (this time from 7eleven, the misudo ones were not plentiful enough... i was hungry).

and then today i drove to sagae, so beautiful, and blasted my music for 1/2 of the way, bought a yamagata, fukushima, and sendai shop guide put out by my favourite japanese magazine, and well, now im in a talkative mood, and im hungry. jeeeze, ive been here for a long time. i should go.

jidosha (or something like that)

feist is not a "new artist".
the machine at the laundro mat ate 1000yen.
my friend is sick and in the hospital, my hands are tied. i stayed up late on the telephone. and now im so tired. and i want to vomit, and i want to cry, and i want to just sleep, and i want to hurt myself to make me realize that this pain is really only small. (i wont though) i just want to be able to get on a plane and make her cookies and knit her slippers and just do anything possible to make her happy. and im not even the sick one, i shouldnt be this stressed (oh, that's a good sign, feeling guilty for feeling bad for a friend. what's wrong with me???)

work is stressful, because i was a slacker, and now im making up for it. must laminate materials now. (someone please hug me!!)

giin toniic onegai shimas/dont smirk at me!

saturday, past: woke up at 6am, worked all day, why did taiki have to sulk for the whole lesson just because i didnt bring a fishing game (i think some kids are too spoiled, uh huh), and yay! three new students have joined the school! worked until 4:30, came home, showered, did boring internet things, slept until 7, put on makeup, packed my bag, got on train, went to yamagata, ate at the new mos burger on nanokomachi, wrote actual introspective thoughts in my journal, was proud of my ability to find dichotomies in my life, washed my hands of mos burger, went to rough roll, watched jason and darren play their guitars, met kaori for the first time, she is terribly beautiful and was wearing the most incredible clothes, met a bunch of new foreigners, new to me, not to yamagata, drank 6 gin and tonics, got buzzed, talked with foreigners i knew, but more indepth, didnt get any phone numbers, flirted, was flirted to, went no where, but happy that legs would touch and no flinching ensued, slept at jasons, watched the real blonde, went for a walk down nanokomachi, bought books for the school, bought teen vogue, had lunch at cybele whilst reading my teen vogue: iced coffee, bagel sandwich, apple pastry, salad with deliciousness, went to dark hollow and bought skull sticker for my bike, went to get yuko's car, jason and i went to toys are us, bought up words, ate strawberry and chocolate soft serve, borrowed book from jason's school, went for a drive with may and jason to keminomori, the people's forest, got gas for the car, drove home...

present: overbudget (and my lips are dry)

future: going to do laundry, going to take the garbage out, going to buy stuff for sushi, going to make photocopies from previously mentioned borrowed book, going to check my email repeatedly because i am a junky. something else too, but i forgot.

catch up

i havent posted in 6 days, or checked my email, or logged into friendster, because my keyboard was causing my computer to make crazy music and dance the macarena, but now, an exorcist (my boss) came by and gave me an new keyboard, and it has been working splendidly. better than it was before.

i had kara miso (ramen) oki (big size) for dinner, and a chocolate bar. mmmm. meiji chocolate. i have to get up at 6am. and i have a lot of work to do. i still have to do my lesson plan for that class, and i so dont want to. maybe i should pack my bag and do the lesson plan in the morning. that's a little short, dont you think? maybe i should just take a little break from the internet.

im really liking the red house painters. my ive just been distracted by ordering singles from the subpop website. i wonder, if the redhouse painters mention japan, will subpop ship to japan for free?

ah, i have nothing else to say, but so much has happened. im such a dork. tomorrow, ill talk. love love. and friendster puhlease, stop maintaining your setup. i want to check my messages. xoxo.

(alex...)my inspiration machine

make the ones that describe you BOLD!
ive also italicized the comments. because i always have comments, you should know that...


001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I like olives.black more than green, except with gin
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own a home.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I like my handwriting.
013. I have acne-free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. duh!!
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been to another country.
019. I carry my knife/razor/whip/whatever weapon you want here everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. breast augmentation here i come!
026. I need money right now.always, see number 53.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister
033. I was born in a country outside of the Canada.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look. i cant complain
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I have random singing outbursts.usually to something dancy and poppy
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same gender. and i plan to again..
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.too much
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgeoisie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my diary.
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch Muchmusic daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
074. I bite my nails.i must stop this habit before i am 24
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have been rejected by someone.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "South Park" movie.
086. I have avoided work to play on OD.
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbour or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.because sarah harmer, my friends, is country
089. I love my best friends.i love them so much!!!
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas sometimes
092. I'm obsessive and often a perfectionist.that's because im a virgo.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome!
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. Had a crush on somebody you have never met.can anyone say douglas coupland three times really fast?
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest movies/books ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "The O.C."dont tell me anything about season two until i watch it. keep your lips sealed!
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often
114. I think ramen is one of the best foods in the whole world. !!!!!!!!!!! i think i might go out for ramen tonight, and i know that i will eat it tomorrow. yummy. chashumen. miso ramen. moyashi ankanke. bring it on! (dont forget the chili paste)
115. I am suffering of a (pseudo) broken heart.
116. zzzzZZZZZzzzzzz
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I try not to change who I am for someone.but i always do
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
122. I enjoy smoothies!!!!!!!!
123. I have had major surgery.
124. I have adopted a pet from the SPCA.kinda, i mean, marmalade was a run away.
125. I am listening to emo music right now.that's because i am emo thankyouverymuch!! ha ha.
126. Some people call me by a nickname.too often, do you know how hard it is for japanese kids to pronouce diandra??
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. I like pumpkin pie. with whipped cream!especially patrick's fabulous pumpkin pie
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.ah, if you read this blog, you should know that by now. or if you're tim. you know too well...
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humour.
134. I'm in my PJs.
135. I'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
136. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong people, or have them fall for me, so I can't help but reciprocate.
137. I'll try anything three times.
138. Done drugs other than alcohol or cannabis.
139. I'm having trouble sleeping.
140. I am a cuddler.
141. I love John Waters films.
142. I have made a pornographic videotape.
143. Sloth is my favorite deadly sin.
145. I know all the words to the "Firefly" theme song.
146. I love Dr. Pepper.
147. I'm a programmer.
148. I why I'm unhappy at times.
149. I own and have read all of the Harry Potter books.bring back sirius black!!
150. I like to smell my own hair.
151. I carry a book with me almost everywhere I go.
153. I have flown to a different country to see a band.
154. Been hospitalized for "mental issue.
155. I have survived totaling a car I was driving.
156. I am addicted to a Manga/anime.
157. Somehow I always seem to get myself into trouble.
158. I have dated someone for longer than 2 yearsjust over 4 and a half thankyouverymuch!
159. I have been hit by flying Eric Szmanda spittle.
160. I have lived in three different countries.
161. I have tattoos
162. I have lost someone I cared about deeply.
163. I am not human until I have had some form of caffiene.
164. I can't use can openers.
165. I went to the emergency room last night.
166. I know all the words to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air theme song.