task #41: working on it

we went to the blues underground blues festival today. for maybe an hour or so. it was a nice setting (the railway museum) and we rode our bikes along the river to get there, but i wont lie. the music was horrible. but, we spotted this cuter young man with a grey and brown striped cardigan and these honkin' fat skate shoes and la dyed blonde curly hair. we complimented him on his book and then talked about coachella. he slept through css (loser!) but saw rage against the machine. always nice. we're going to drink tea in the basement and watch a sarah polley flick (the i inside) and i'm going to embroider onto some felt! yay for embroidery! woot for felt! yayayayaya!! oh my god, speaking of cancer one of the women performing was pushing her cds and said she was donating 2 dollars from every sale to a charity and one of the charities was the war amps. her sister had cancer and went to the war amps camp (hereafter known as "amp camp" stewart says its a camp where you take your broken amp. baaaa) and now she's graduated to a camp counsellor at "cancer camp". cancer camp? is that genuine? sincere? or just a bad non-pc slip? hm. i like amp camp better though. what do you like better? (here, take a poll!)

peter gallagher called, he wants his eyebrows back (task #25 and #8)

ive been trolling at martin's pictures of his last few jaunts in akayu and china and am homesick for those people i loved so much when i was there (i still love them now!) this is a picture of my favourite favourite ramen shop. we used to go there all the time and drink beer from the vending machine and listen to jazz records and talk about counter culture with the daughter. so nice. baaaaaaaaaaah. i'm feeling nihon sick so bad. stewart and i have been counting down the days = 9! suh-weet! so excited! yayayayayayaaaaaaaa! other than that, things at home are sorted out. i'm sure details wont matter for a while, so i'll spare them. but phew!

okay, so task update:

#25 i began watching sex, lies, and videotape w/ stewart and derek and it was all boring and slow, until derek dumped the bowl of popcorn everywhere (ahahahahahaha!) but continued to eat what fell on him and stayed in the bowl. we ended up turning it off. it was nice seeing Gallagher's caterpillars again. and andie mcdowell being all prudish. we didn't get to the part where she fucks james spader. but it feels like it's going to happen!

#8 nine more days! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!

jumping out of the saddle

today i received my tights from we love colors in the mail. they're so amazingly saturated with colour, i heart them! i got these fuschia ones and sky blue ones too! i'm feeling very weighed down by a bit of a conflict that is happening within the house and it's hard b/c i'm not sure what's going on. it's making me feel very unsettled, somewhat alone, and nervous. i feel like i'm being put into this situation where confrontation is necessary (or inevitable) rather than just being present in one's body and talking it through as one goes! i'll surface with more details after we get back from Oliver, b/c then it'll make more sense. it just sucks b/c i feel like i'm constantly saying that i'm taking the burden for things. why is it because i act like an adult that i have to clean up other people's stuff? why can't people just tell me what they don't like about me and we can make ammends, rather than freaking out? bah!

the summer is winding down and i need to buckle down. my birthday is around the corner and my marriage is even closer than that. yay! stewart and i are on this awesome love high that i don't ever want to get rid of and who knows what will happen to the current mood, but i love it. the next week or so is going to be intense, and in a good way. i have to finish up my proposal for my thesis (a draft anyway), as well as get ready for a new roommate and get ready to go on a trip to Oliver with my mum and her man, so that stewart and i can get hitched! it's going to be karaoke, wine touring, marrying, eating food, having breakfast, listening to country, and just having a good time. i'm too excited for a weekend away just prior to school starting. i'm quite behind in a bunch of things but am not letting it bug me. i'm at meow right now covering the store while b. is getting her new tattoo! yay! ive been listening to some new promos that came in and recommend the following:
1. the new mirah and spectratone international (!!)
2. black dice, hits in october, but nice!
3. lady birds. i am so happy that indie electronic is finally cool.
4. yacht = http://www.teamyacht.com

smmmchaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! yay for first day of school outfits! yay!! this is my pick for a back to school outfit. shoes! can't forget shoes!

there's something in the way...

YAY

FOR LEARNING

HOW TO

CAN!

well, and use a pressure cooker, and have fun, and listen to records, and order food through a bulk organic/health food company with a collective! go awesome prince george experiences! (i also received fabric and made a pouch! woot!

task #98: drop spindling

this is a picture of me, my sister, and our mom just after i got back from japan. i've been feeling LOW about myself lately: particularly b/c i'm gaining so much weight-->but who the fuck wouldn't be gaining this weight with my schedule? i suck at planning physical activity, but should get to it more. i do love this picture of the three of us. i think we've only been together one other time since then (as the three of us) and the next time will be the wedding. it's hard us being busy girls. stewart and i just watched arthur with liza minelli and i just love her. i love her style, her accent, her hair, and her attitude. i felt like i really wanted to BE her. well, embody her style anyway. and her figure. not some waify-thing we're forcefed now, but something gorgeous and curvy. i was telling the girls at work that if i get under a size 16 (which i haven't, but i've been a 16), i would begin to feel weird about myself and not be sure about who i was. so much of my identity is poured into what size i am and how much that makes me me. i know that i'd be incredibly svelt-ly gorgeous if i was thin and tall (the ladies in my family are killers), but i don't know if it's something i even want to get to. and not because i dont think i could get there (i couldnt at this point in my life, i dont have the drive to give into the patriarchal standards of beauty), but is there something wrong with wanting that body (ie. those beautiful milky tarts from suicide girls)? oivey.

as for drop spindling, i bought yarn today and i met a woman that is hooking (haha) me up with an instructor for drop spindling. i'm excited. i want to learn SO bad. off to read more klosterman and think about my thesis (i'm scared).

task updates

task #1: so stewart ended up buying torie's bike. but, he's going to buy me a purple pedal bike for my birthday! woot!

task #9: we're getting legally married on august 31st in oliver b.c. so, almost there! our symbolic wedding isn't until october. we're so behind i want to just cry!

task #10: i've sold twelve things in my store!

task #17: i ended up watching the last episode like three times. pretty sad. stewart wore his death cab pin during the folk fest to lament the end of the o.c. amy millan magically played a death cab cover. it's a sign! it's probably not over! i hope not!

task #24: i've made 4!!! (see pics on my flickr!)

task #30: harry potter and the order of the phoenix -->watched!

task #32: learning to skateboard. you should see the bruise on my knee! yuck!

task #43: work in a job for more than a year? this is my meow challenge! it's gonna be easy! hey, can you believe we've been in pg for almost a year??

task #61: we've signed up, but just waiting for our rentals to come in the mail.

we dont want our boring jobs to keep us paying bills forever

last night i could not sleep for the life of me. i tried and tried and tried. so at something around midnight i got up and have been reading erica jong's new book re: life of writing. more thesis reading. i should really be reading it right now. i also spent part of the evening making collages, and i'm just listening to a mix tape i made heather. it's so good. i want it! haha. there's some kids on tv, yacht, tegan and sara, the blow, the cure, b52s, new young pony club, cut copy. fun fun fun!! today i dont work ? but have to take rupert to the vet, and get my clean on (!!) and my read on (!!) and perhaps my sew on. oooh, and i joined zip.ca so we're going to start catching up on my 101 in 1001 list (which is updated! yes!)

stewart and i just went skateboarding for about 1/2 hour. i'm learning on torie's bright pink board. last night we got a little drunk and i learned then. but today i'm so tired and just was so thirsty and i fell for my first time. yes, that's right, i bailed. i landed on my hands and knees. haha. it felt good. we've been working out the details of our elopement in oliver, b.c. we think we're getting eloped on august 31st. i guess ppl knowing and coming means that we're not really eloping. but we're going to drink wine all day and have amazing food, and be with stewart's family at the end of the summer in a fucking wine vinyard. how nice is that? stewart's all complainy re: get off the computer so i'm going to run. stinker.

last night was the last night i was going to see one of my friends. he's off to new york to study clinical psychology (ph.d.) for 5 years. he's one of those friends that i've been wishing i'd meet since i've moved here and it's been hard because since i've really met him i've known he is leaving. so, thus, ahem, automatically there was this sense of closure of hiding of another awesome friend to be lost! booerns. on other fronts i'm pretty complainy lately. i mean, i woke up with a sore neck, i feel like i'm carrying the weight of this house, chore-wise, on my shoulders (i mean i've done the dishes something like 13 times and the next person as close is at 3 times!!), i'm hating my body, blah blah. it's all signs of stress. which sucks. hardcore. i'm feeling overwhelmed with everything (ie. planning a wedding, having some people around me that are "strange" and i feel might put me in an awkward situation, school, finances that suck, etc), and i guess i'm wishing i had more people around me to support me b/c i feel like supporting everyone (must say, there are a few ppl here that are incredibly awesome and supportive, they're just not in my life ALL the time). i need breakfast and probably a cuddle with my man. we're getting married early, we decided. yay!