obsession

for those of you who do not know, i am obsessed with kelly ellard.

when the beating and death of reena virk actually took place i dont have memories of recognizing it as it happened in the media, nor the first trial really. as i was at the time i was probably actually really affected by it, but now my obsessive behaviour around this issue is totally different. at the end of her second trial it got to the point where i would tell anyone that i saw that i thought kelly ellard didnt do it and that they should just leave her the fuck alone. back then the judge declared a mistrial, and i was happy. i mean the stupid prosecution didnt think their case through enough and they had all the other witnesses and glowatski lied like crazy to cover their ass and its just one big teenage drama. now the trial is at its third showing (oddly you can read some pretty indepth accounts of the trial at club vibes but please be aware of the "homo"-bashing that ensues within the thread. and today or yesterday the defence and prosecution summed up their cases and the jury is now in a contemplative mood. i will just have to wait with baited breath to see what happens.

i dont want to make it seem like i see the crime committed as a simple crime that has no effect on anyone. that is just total bullshit. this murder has had a strong implication on race, the foster child system, how parents respond to their children being murdered after they've been unwelcome at home, media frenzy, and constant victimization of kelly ellard. i dont want to say that kelly is guilty or innocent. and i wont say that she was wearing all white that night and didnt lay a finger on virk, because the evidence is there, she did have a part in the murder, but i dont think that she had the part that has made her out like a monster. and honestly im not sure if she'll be convicted or not, but there is an obsession with punishing ellard for something. why are they continuing to try her even after the last judge said all the evidence was misconstrued. i mean the prosecution has a dirty case. im more obsessed with why people are trying to criminalize ellard and why i have an obsession with her.

jeff recently moved into a building in eastern new westminster. where we suspect kelly ellard is lurking in the hallway of his building. when he finds out what apartment shes in he said he would befriend her and borrow sugar from her for me, and then start to withdraw potential murder weapons from her apartment as keepsakes for after she goes to jail. because she wont really need them in there. a sick twisted joke. yes. why am i so obsessed by this trial and kelly ellard?

race, youth, kids gone wrong. she's my age. does that mean anything? and fuck, she looks so mean in her picture.