"i sit and wonder of all the loves that couldve been"

this kid kept harrassing martin and i. so what did i do? i threw a bucket of water in her face. japan is amazing!

yo! just b/c im fat doesnt mean that my favourite hobby is eating! i dont eat nearly enough as i should! why is it always a fucking issue?!

today it rained. its so nice and green outside. and the cicadas are buzzing so loudly my head feels like it is going to implode. i had a dream last night that my grandfather was put on placebo heart medication, without his consent, and then his blood clotted and he had another heart attack. yikes. im WAY behind on my blog reading and i dont have the energy to keep up. im going to kyoto in 12 days! oh yes! this weekend i slept a lot! it was so nice. to come home from walking around miyauchi in the heat and throwing BUCKETS of water on people (they call it tradition!) and then i slept for two hours. like a rock! (sung like the chevy commercial...) im feeling really energetic and strung out, but all i want to do is sleep. im resigning myself to the fact that i aint gonna get no booty before i leave. which is kind of upsetting, really. but, keep my chin high, forget about the booty, and maybe booty will arrive. all over the map i am. this morning i was interviewed for the yamagata evening paper. and they took pictures of me which werent bad, but come on! let me control my public image! last night this kid threw up at the ramen shop. im happy i missed the action, but got to see the clean up action afterwards. tonight we're having a sushi party at marie-sensei's sakeya. very exciting. get my maki-groove on. on sunday i went into yamagata and perused shimamura with bec! be proud of me! i put down cool shirts and the coolest fucking silver bag i have ever seen (and it was only 1500yen!!!) that is what i call restraint! (but, i did end up buying a beautiful pair of bright blue puma flip flops. but, hey! i needed flip flops!!) im in love with death cab for cutie right now. and im stoked that my blog is becomming a message board for ppl to stay in touch. haha. and kids, my daddio is picking me up from the airport! so, well, lets do lunch at the whip or cafe deux soleils that afternoooooooon! what do you say? love love. xoxo.

"i almost dialed your number when i thought the coast was clear and it looked up for so long at me, and said call me please..."

saturday morning. i thought about going for a drive last night, but it is awfully depressing going to makeout point (the sky park) by yourself. im a weak person. anyway, i ended up heading straight to my futon and falling asleep with my clothes on. scarf and all. mid-july. scarf? wha? (im not sure myself. something about comfort levels and barriers). but, i found a sample of burberry brit i had from a vogue magazine from last october (burning money in the airport) and rubbed it on my chest and neck after my shower (of course it would get me to get someone to makeout point...but all i ended up doing was smelling myself all night, falling in love with myself, and falling asleep to the wonderful smell....)and you know what? my track jacket still smells like burberry brit! i love it! anyway, when i woke up this morning the sun was shining and the sky is blue outside and its fucking hot out! im off to teach classes, eat lunch, and then draw to my heart's content tonight. i have to save money for my trip to kyoto (i have NO money. i am accepting donations. please?!) and then tomorrow we're going to the miyauchi matsuri at the nani-nani shrine. kumonataisha? something like that. tanoshisone! xoxo.

"waiting for a red light, sitting on a time bomb, nothing seems to go right, still remaining calm"

rhu shanghai last night. tomomihartochan works there. she is fabulous. and covered in piercings. all of which she inflicted herself. sweet (even the tongue and the lip!)

daisuke. martin. i. on the way to rhu shanghai we ran into the dalai lama! martin and i look so tough.

okay, so i know that im the most horrible person ever. i had a mail box FULL of emails, and rather than reply to any of them, im just going to post. im sitting in space create listening to melodia. its really really nice. look at this picture. the smiling girl in the middle is mayu. my student. martin took the picture at the youchen this morning. anyway, for those emails i wanted to reply to, my quick response is that: "i know i havent emailed you in a while too! i miss you alot. and im happy that you're reserving time to yourself. the practical stuff sucks. hugs and love and we'll talk soon" (to the many recipients.....)

big news!!!!! my plane ticket home has been booked!!!
i leave tokyo on OCTOBER 26, 2005 at 6:20pm. and i arrive at YVR at 10:55am on the 26th!!!! yay!!!! who's meeting me at the airport!? can we immediately go somewhere for a smoothie the moment we get out of the parking lot? and then straight to a bed. a big bed. it better have kalin on one side. caitee on the other. bec and jeff at my feet. and amanda and carly on the pull for those that need to get out of the snuggle fest for a few minutes. oh my god you guys!!! i cant wait!!!!

okay, im off to have a shower, and play some pop melody. uh huh.
xoxo ディ電車