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today was monumentally shitty. coupled with not taking a lunch, only eating [homemade] cookies and a power-shake, and being underslept (i hate winter right now) my work day was pretty challenging (ie. scheming ways to get old men from grooming youth who access our centre, dealing with people on drugs, and people yelling at me >> FUN!!!). and to top that off i felt like i got nothing accomplished at work. so i've started to make mini-lists of things i accomplish in a day, which will esp. help at reporting time. my next stop is to get my office more sorted and to get two smaller desks in there, primarily so i don't have to sit at my monstrous desk anymore. it's a bit oppressive it's so big, and low.

thanks to lovely friends who called to check in on the shittiness i'm feeling a lot better, so much better in fact that i broke down and agreed to rent tropic thunder. the peeps at the video store know my name. hm. what was i saying about missing summer? teeth was there, but i was more in the mood for an oscar nominated parody. and fluff, really, so i could finish this blasted alligator scarf. yes.

i miss working out while my tattoo heals too! i think that if i could go to the gym and work up a big sweat rather than suck on my pepsi slurpee and lay on the couch things might be a lot better. anyway, off i go, to kill this alligator once and for all. xo

sign me up, i volunteer, votes are in for lifeguard of the year

today was a pretty great day. overall this evening has been shrouded in stress. namely work: i find work very stressful. i find that i am not good at "dealing" with the stress at work. it's not like anything at work is wrong or unacceptable or unnatural or awful. it's strange because the work is exactly like i always thought it would be: fast, busy, desperately difficult, and intense--which isn't a problem. a lot of workplaces are like this but i don't feel like i have the stamina to keep up with it. i don't feel made to be an academic. i just want to curl into a store that i own. that would be the best.

today was great because instead of getting up at 8am to see stewart's childhood friend (their bus was late and it would've been too rushed) we got to sleep until 12:30pm, turn the cbc radio 1 on and listen to stuart mclean, get lazily dressed and go for a drive to blackburn for freecycle-style xmas lights. while driving we were all snuggled into our jackets listening to the newer hotchip and drinking coffees (so good!). stewart andi got to talking about staying in prince george, if we bought a house, where we'd buy it (blackburn--duh!), etc. then we went to denny's for breakfast (mediocre, but not bad! strange!), shopping at hmv and zellers (the mall has driven me crazy). we rented howl's moving castle. we were trying to rent these two other movies: the wizard and drop dead gorgeous. neither of which blockbuster had. i really find blockbuster to be overwhelmin. blah!

stewart's dying his hair blonde right now, and tomorrow it'll go poppy red. too cute. i feel so overweighted by work. i'm going to work a *really* long day tomorrow. up at 6am. bleck. so i'm going to bed here in a little bit. i'm trying to read the great gatsby. supposedly it's one of the best american novels of all time. our bed should be here this week. yay! this is turning into a to do list. i need to destress from work.