getting used to getting up early again

i was up late last night helping jeremy with his thesis and doing some work. i think i fell asleep around 12:30am, though i know i slept with my laptop open and my head on the keyboard a few times. seth's been having TERRIBLE overnight sleeps. and i just have no knowledge around what to do. most of the books i've seen or resources in general are centred around getting your baby to fall asleep OR are cry-it-out options which i dont think i'm down with. that crying baby hurts my heart. and then there's been earlier mornings. it just sucks.


i woke up this morning to nice fluffy snow on everything. i didn't even see it snow in action so that's always a nice surprise. today i'll probably stay inside most of the day, do work, drink coffeeeeeee, cuddle with my family. i'm going to make tortilla soup for dinner (never made it). and maybe i'll get my hair set up tonight to dye it fuschia. XO

GIVEAWAY WINNER (and hair update)

Congrats atomiquelle!! You are the giveaway winner! Thank you to everyone that entered and the numbers are skewed because of a double comment but I renumbered them before I did the generator. Anyway, if you didn't win but would still like to get your hands on Feminism FOR REAL you can order one from the CCPA.

In other news I've started the process of dying my hair like Ramona Flowers. When I ordered the dye I did so under recommendation from Kaylah's posts at Dainty Squid (here and here) and ordered some manic panic in two colours, cotton candy and fuschia. I also ordered a beyond the zone bleach kit and I left it on for 45 minutes and it came out super yellow, but i liked it. I just spent the last 1/2 hour covering it with the cotton candy and getting it under a plastic bag and secured on my head. Now I'm going to sleep with it on and rinse it out the AM. I'll probably go pale pink/yellow for a few days/this whole week, and then go to the fuschia. If it turns out I got this job my start date would be the 17th of March? So, I'd have to dye it back to brown the Sunday night before (b/c it's a real adult job). If i dont get it, i might go light pink for as long as i can and then go fuschia. We'll see. The pictures below are of me pinning my hair up and looking 90s, the yellow, the pink on yellow, and my hair cover. Now, to SLEEP i go! I offered to host sustain-a-table again tomorrow night and am going to make a feast similar to one found at the foundation: lower east side, nachos, and sugar pie. XO

"the world is full of good intentions, paradise is hard to find"

i've been kind of in a funk for the past few days. i feel so tired, like the months of sleep deprivation have hit me and that the pulling of the left side of my neck is really starting to take its toll. i'm tense. and it sucks. i really feel like i need a few days to myself. the last few days have been busy and perhaps life changing ( i had a job interview today that while isn't with the provincial government would effectively cross that goal off ). and i'm just tired. i kind of want a shopping spree. or even to go to this  ........

today is probably my last day as a person with brown hair for a few days or weeks. i got my hairdye to go all ramona flowers but then got in the process of applying for this job and maybe having an interview to having an interview so i left it as au natural. and then i was going to dye it tonight and realized i didnt have gloves bleck.

i guess i'm feeling defeated. by what i'm not sure.  so i'm going to take a tylenol for this neck pain drink lots of water and go to bed. tomorrow will be a better day. XO