googling "academia sucks" in images got me, well, porn. and really? if only it were that easy. the funny thing is that while an MA in anything is supposed to make you want to continue on with schooling or to be an academic, it has done the complete opposite for me. i am beginning to hate the ivory tower with a passion and also beginning to loathe my time there. it could be so rewarding, but i think that the "traditional" academic sense is lost on me. for me, the weird thing is that i believe that "being professional" is important in certain senses, but i've just had some incredible run-ins lately with academics that, and i know this may seem passive aggressive because i want to be a little allusionary, have been the epitome of the reasons that i don't want to be here (in university). i have also had a serious run around in many different ways from the grad office at unbc. my department specifically has been amazing, but it's funny when you don't follow the line everything else on it doesn't really have meaning or importance or even simple recognition. the other weird thing for me is that i want to work in some official capacity, or professional capacity, because that's where the money is. money to pay the bills. but it's really in my stars to open my own store. i'm much better in this non-academic capacity. i can't change hundreds of years of legitimacy-based academic inquiry, nor patriarchy, and "the man". i'm tired. this fighting and activism thing is a lot of work.on another note, i'm knitting these anastasia socks, but had to restart from some misti alpaca to some knitty dirty girl. she makes the nicest sock yarns. well, she dyes them in beautiful colours. and excellent colourways. and it's just so soft after the wash. i love you rachel-marie!
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