"We went looking for love but we might have to make it up"

I rolled into Prince George about twenty minutes ago from just over fifteen hours on the road from Victoria. I have made the long trek to Victoria countless times since I moved back to Prince George almost a year ago (!!) strictly because people I love are in Vic. Probably the most comfortable people I have in my life. I also have people I love in Prince George (which is why I moved back here). Also in Terrace. Also in Port Alberni. Also in Toronto. Also in Montreal. Also in the US. Also in Vancouver. And pretty much every other random reach of the province of BC. I'm a lucky lucky lucky girl. My people, my friends, my sisters, my brothers, my network are so incredibly invaluable and patient and supportive. For many many years I felt like I was a shitty friend. I didn't have good friends so I didn't know how to be a good friend. But then I started meeting kindred spirits and bosom buddies. Friends I just call my sisters because it's easier. Friends that I want to be invaluable, patient, and supportive for. They're my lifeblood and without them I wouldn't be me. So there's that.

Every time I go to Victoria I drive home and without a doubt bawl in the car eventually because I realize that I'm leaving the love in that city behind and travelling so far.  Just a month ago I bawled in the car on the drive and the following day sat in my car (and then my bed) and cried for two hours. Heaving, guttural crying. But today I didn't cry!! And I don't even feel as sad as I have in the past (so probably hopefully won't cry tomorrow). I know I'm coming back and I know there will be arms to hold me and things will be great.

There was something about driving up to PG and seeing the glow and rolling down the window and it didn't smell like ass. I'm happy to be here. So happy to be here.

 

hello jealousy

it's monday on the clock and i'm exhausted. i worked the whole weekend pretty much, and got to spend some time today watching derby and having dinner with dear new friends (!!). last week i quit my job and i am leaving this lil' town of port alberni on december 8th-ish. looking forward to moving back to PRINCE GEORGE for a few years and excited for all the good stuff going on there. i will be making my "first appearance" at a craft fair hosted by Laura over at my other blog HOME SWEET HOME... and a launch of the best shirt ever.

yesterday i got to help build a community garden. life is good right now, though i need to carve out a bit more time to get on top of my tasks.

PUSSY RIOT

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rather than explain it, read this op ed from the NY TIMES.

Today has been an AWESOME day. Exhausting. Hot. But I ended the day soul searching and watching the sun go down while knitting and playing with the kid.

stick up for yourself son, never mind what anybody else done

chinese cemetery victoria

view from the chinese cemetery, victoria

played really hard, had a difficult time getting out of bed

when in victoria, fill a growler...

sandy ankles, i dont get to see these tattoos often, so i love being reminded of them

sand dollar on the beach in parksville. so many of them!

i think we will probably live on vancouver island for a really long time. it's kind of like paradise, ya know? i put 800KM on my car in the past few days zipping up and down and over it. beaches, parks, food, friends, and lots of coffee. it was a good busy brain time but active rest from the world of work awaiting me back at this ol' computer i'm pounding away on. i think i found a solution for my work stress over the past few months and feel a lot lighter. a bit more motivated. and disappointed that something that seems so small could be such a derailer of my life. i hope people will get on board, support my ideas and decisions, and this other stuff i'm working on will fall into place.