"maybe its cause i can be, you know, like cold as ice"

home for two hours. almost done reading that controversial james frey book that oprah's been touting. no opinions here. yet. made some carrot, roasted squash, dill, soy soup. so good. munching on that exact plate of sushi. spicy tofu rolls and yam rolls. oh. my. bought a small cd player for my bedroom yesterday. promptly curled into bed with boy#2 and listened to the newest live wilco cd. disc one. it was nice times. ive realized recently that i am indeed fucked up from my previous relationships (and the incidents with boy#1) that i had created this wall i didnt know existed. that im not willing to spill my heart out. beginning to take it down re: boy#2. he's the guy that i wanted to date when i was 14. punk. vegetarian. lives on his own. artist. and older. but now im the older one. and daily im pleasantly surprised by this beautiful, strong, young man. its a nice place to be.