ohsweetie

on lunch break at work. my neck hurts. my eyes hurt. my head hurts. and i'm cranky. i feel like things are getting worse and i do not know what to do to stop the escalation of badness. i have a desk on the hill now which is awesome! and i will get up there to work as often as possible. last night we went out with a bunch of people that i honestly have considered friends, and aside from the two people who were great, everyone else was pretty exclusionary and rude and insisted on sitting at a separate table (like it's fucking highschool and we're fighting in line for the chen-dogs!). i mean, we all came here together, can't we at least *try* to sit together? so, my attempts were dismissed. coincidentally at the same time i ran into a girl from school who told me that she really liked me taking a stand and raising my voice for alternative/ethical porn and healthy sexualities and that we should hang out more! very nice. the people i did sit with and have food/beer with were amazing. i just can't believe that people would insist on such exclusionary tactics. so, decided that my reasons for not wanting to go out have been validated, people i don't want to hang out with are officially deemed as "no-longer-friends". grr. moving on!