7.19.2008

you gotta do do do do do your best


well, i'm feeling better! i just got seriously distracted by trying to price out a trip to vancouver to see JAGUAR LOVE and the faint on august 1st. and it's impossible. sometimes i really wish we owned a car. we could just fill er up and go. still cheaper than the bus. and we could sleep in the car !! hahaha.

my cloud of confusion has lifted and i'm so happy! i feel great! i feel sunburnt (from above carwash) and tired but overall motivated for life here. i'm slowing down, is what i've been saying, and thinking about what i want! (aside from WANTING to go see johnny whitney on august 1st! someone please make this happen!!) what we want! and putting that in motion.

i can't really say anything else about it right now because im still really confused. mostly because i don't know where i'm getting paychecks after august 31st, and i also am having such a bad experience getting paid with my most lucrative contract this summer and i'm suffocating under not being paid. i never took being paid to be a luxury! especially being paid in a timely manner (i mean, it's been 3 1/2 months!). i'm going to be applying for some jobs here and finding a way to make it work. oh how i want to make it work!

xo

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