"im thinking its a sign, that the freckles in our eyes are just like mirror images and when we sleep they're perfectly aligned"

due to the time change magic of crossing the date line i arrived the same time in vancouver as i had left akayu. the ride to narita was quite somber, but we had mirei-chan along for the fun of the ride. saying goodbye to eiko at narita was so sad. i was crying a bit. i pinkie swore i would be back next year. and this morning, when i met kalin in the airport i just started bawling. even now. i know that it's because im fucking exhausted and didnt sleep on the plane. im totally culture shocked, and its weird seeing loud annoying people that arent only me. presently i feel as if im nursing a broken heart. i was somewhat momentarily over the boy situation, but then he called me via eiko's phone while we were at tokyo station to say, "kioskete ne" and "bai bai". ever since that phone call i have been consumed with a delirious heart sickness. the only emotion that i can honestly feel right now is that of a broken heart. of missing the one you love. of wishing that on the phone instead of saying i would see him next year that i should have gone out on a line and said, "i love you". which is not productive at all. oh the weight of a heavy heart.